{"id":170,"date":"2013-03-15T21:23:36","date_gmt":"2013-03-16T05:23:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/?p=170"},"modified":"2013-03-15T22:07:26","modified_gmt":"2013-03-16T06:07:26","slug":"between-comfort-and-the-sting-lies-no-safety","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/?p=170","title":{"rendered":"Between comfort and the sting lies no safety"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/20120304-DSC_7003-I-to-print-LR.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-171\" title=\"Between comfort and the sting lies no safety\" src=\"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/20120304-DSC_7003-I-to-print-LR.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"800\" height=\"1000\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/20120304-DSC_7003-I-to-print-LR.jpg 800w, http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/20120304-DSC_7003-I-to-print-LR-240x300.jpg 240w, http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/20120304-DSC_7003-I-to-print-LR-480x600.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 767px) 89vw, (max-width: 1000px) 54vw, (max-width: 1071px) 543px, 580px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>In the pain after loss there is nowhere to go.<\/p>\n<p>And where I want to go doesn\u2019t help. I want to hurt myself, berate myself. I want to overthink, underwork, overeat and overwork. I want to sit in a state of paralysis.<\/p>\n<p>I want to make myself suffer. I can\u2019t do that, but I\u2019m used to it.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m trying to learn a new way.<\/p>\n<p>And what is that?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In the pain after loss there is nowhere to go. And where I want to go doesn\u2019t help. I want to hurt myself, berate myself. I want to overthink, underwork, overeat and overwork. I want to sit in a state of paralysis. I want to make myself suffer. I can\u2019t do that, but I\u2019m used &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/?p=170\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Between comfort and the sting lies no safety&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":171,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/170"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=170"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/170\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":173,"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/170\/revisions\/173"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/171"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=170"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=170"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.melanieannportraits.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=170"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}